Be Careful What You Pray For…

In February 3 things happened. I found out I was pregnant who will be my second biological child and 4th child between my husband and I. I then received notice I was being forced to work from home as of May 31st. And finally, we receive a notice that the apartments we lived in was not renewing leases and was putting everyone out, in order to remodel. How crazy is all of that?! Talk about stressed.

We have been trying to have a baby for about 3 years. And nothing happened. I kept praying and kept praying and finally, I gave up. Now don’t misunderstand this. I gave up on trying, but I never lost my faith that God would give us this child. I was coming to grips with the fact that I may not be able to get pregnant again due to my endometriosis. But God has a sense of humor. Not only did I get pregnant I couldn’t figure out when we conceived. So I was freaking out. My husband has been very confident God would do it in his time. And that he did. My husband was right.

I also wanted to be home more. I felt like my kids didn’t see me enough. However, this is not what I expected. Again God has a sense of humor. So I prayed for the opportunity to be at home more. even if that meant working from home a few days a week. I knew I couldn’t at our last home because it wasn’t enough space. But I still wanted to work from home and be home with them.

My husband and I started talking about moving and finding more space. he was fed up with my sewing in the dining room and I was fed up with him working from the living room. So we needed office space bad!  I didn’t know how this was going to work.

However, my husband and I had previously discussed moving prior to all of this. We just didn’t do anything to start the process. I felt like God was fed up with our request and us not doing anything to prepare for what we wanted. So we receive the letter saying we had to move. We started looking for homes to rent because we knew we weren’t ready to buy. I prayed that we would find a home and God would give me a clear sign that the house we found was ours. My husband found a home that had no photos online. The only thing we knew was it had a 3 car garage and 5 bedrooms.  But when we saw it in person we were so surprised. It was perfect for us. and my husband’s face lite up when he saw it. We both agreed it was the one.

Now here is the funny thing when I say God has a sense of humor. We were not prepared for any of this. I demanded an ultrasound to see how far along i was, right before my scheduled ultrasound I got sick and was bleeding, so again I’m freaking out!  went tot he ER and found out somehow we conceived right before my period and I between the time we conceived and I found out I was pregnant I had gone to the doctor like twice because I was in pain and thought had the flu(so I thought). We had 30 days to move and had not packed.   And I had been sent home before May 31st to work from home.  I say all of this because when I was praying for all of these things I didn’t put a time frame on any of it. I let God do his thing. I stood on Jeremiah 29:11 and believed He had a plan for me. This experience has taught me that when I pray I have to be patient and have to expect great things. I learned it will not happen the way I want it to but the way God wants it to because there is a lesson and a test in what we think is a storm and it creates the testimony.