Finding Me

Over the past few weeks I decided to find the Me in being a wife and mother. I lost her. I went from being Ta’Mara, to Jordan’s mom, to now LeMont’s wife.

But I lost Ta’Mara. I took a deep look at myself and figured it out. I went through all the things I don’t like about me and decided to change it.

The first thing I didn’t like was my uneven skin tone. I am light skin. Or as my husband calls me beige. I’m a pale golden yellow with a red undertones. In the summer I turn an under cooked carmel or toffee color. In the fall and winter I lose that little bit of color like most light skin or fair complicated people do. So I got up one day went to Sephora and got matched for foundation. Epic fail. The foundation I was matched to made me look old and orange. So instead of waiting for make up artist to match me I got on Maybelline’s website and matched my self. Not to beep my own horn but I found the perfect shade. Beep, beep, tute, tute!  Fixed that problem. Next issue I had was this hair. I’m great at styling clothes but I’m horrible when it comes to my hair. So I got on YouTube and looked up natural hair tutorials for 3c/4a hair and how to get my curls to stay longer than an hour. Found it! Did my hair and killed it for a whole week!

Hair and face check! I look more like me and how I want to feel. But there was still something missing.

Sleep! I haven’t been getting the right amount of sleep. I’m either sleeping too much or not enough. I’m at my best with 6 hours of sleep. Coffee, no breakfast, light lunch, a good walk and nice dinner. So I’m challenging myself to get back to those habits and include my husband and kids. They are in for a treat. Lol